- LOVE -

What thing makes u happy?
The thing that makes me happy..
Even though i might not realize it is love and caring from u..
It is my habit to get my happiness from u..
After I lost u..
I found that I like to spend quiet time at home..
With my lovely family..
Cause I am able to pretend to be happy infront of them..
I less to hang out with friends for now..
Maybe I am moody..
Or don't wanna let them see my sadness..
I am a very emotional person..
I know I would have a hard time dealing with life without the LOVE ingredient..
Keeping my feelings secret for too long is not something I can afford..
So..I choose to voice out..
I just want to get through with life..
As painlessly as possible to be with u..
What could be more important than my loved one? Nothing..
I'll either have everything I've ever wanted..
Or nothing at all in my future..
But..I choose to wait for it..
Even nothing I'll get..
But..at least I try..
Deep in my heart..
I truly know you're the one that..
I LOVE and can't never let go..

- 真的被遗弃了-

失去了你..感觉真的失去了所有..

我的天空，我的世界..

已经没了色彩..





我拥有的..

只剩伸手不见五指..一片乌凄凄的天空..

- 生日快乐 -

8月25日是你的生日..
还记得往年吗?
往年这个时候我们应该是在聊着电话的..
我还会唱生日歌给你听..
可是现在呢?
现在的我，就孤单的在写blog..
你，应该也跟周公约会去了吧！
在准准12点时..
我有打电话给你啊..
但，你听下去的..
应该就只有生日快乐这四个字吧！
其他的，你应该不想听..
我没有用你很多时间..
就只是短短的2分钟而已..
盖了电话后..
我以为你会打回来的..
但，你并没有..
就连我发短讯给你..
你也没回我了..
真的那么讨厌我吗?
真的不能原谅我吗?
我说了..
我会把我接下去的生日愿望都给你..
我也希望你的生日愿望能够实现..
真的很希望有一天..
你会回头把我这个傻瓜带回家..
我爱你，所以我会等你..
我等你把我带回家..
别让我做无主孤魂，好吗?
最后..
我愿你生日快乐..
开开心心..
最重要的还是身体健康..
还有事事顺心..
我爱你..永远都爱你..

- 开心的你 -

看了你的照片..
你真的好开心..
没有了我，你真的很开心..
收到很多礼物吧?
记得好好珍惜它们..
虽然，我还在犹豫是否要给你买礼物..
但,我好像觉得已经微不足道了..
不懂怎么的..
看了你的照片后真的有很难过..
我也不懂为什么..
看到你开心的跟朋友和家人合照..
是有替你开心没错..
只是，自己的内心没有很好过而已..
因为我已经不可能是那位站在你旁边的人了..
有人说你的farewell n birthday派对..............
很像结婚请酒那样..
哈！也许吧..
可能因为请太多人..
场面有些浩大才会有这种感觉吧！
但，我并没有什么资格去留些什么点评的..
我没有被邀请出席这场派对..
因为我不被他人欢迎..
他说，我的出现只会让他感觉更烦..
我能说什么呢？
没话说吧？
不是说什么奇迹会出现的吗？
有吗？在哪里？
我怎么看不见..
我真的真的好想奇迹会出现..
会吗？但愿会吧！
我只知道，你开心..
你给我知道你真的很开心..
没了我，你的确很开心..
但，我很希望..
这一切都是虚假的..
我很希望你会告诉我..
其实没了我你并不开心..
一点都不..
我这希望还存在吗？
它还有可能会实现吗？
我在等..
我真的在等..

- complicated -

All bothering things keep rolling inside my heart..
I hate this kind of feeling..
I don't wish it to appear inside my heart..
Can somebody tell me what is HAPPINESS ?
Can somebody help me to take away my SADNESS ?
God..U are nice..please use Your kindness..
To take away my sadness..
I need Your help..
I want to be happy..
My feeling now is..
Can I disappear in this world just for today ?
Just only today..
I have to force myself to be happy..
Try to don't think too much..
But..
I failed to do it..
I was unsuccessful..
I hate myself..
Such easy thing also unable to do it..
My heart is complicated..
I hate..I hate..

- 原谅我 -

这张东西不是出自于什么名师的作品..
也不是什么名贵的东西..
它只是我用鸡蛋壳粘成的一幅字..
它没有很好看，更没有很完美..
还记得自己还是小学生时..
老师曾经教我们用鸡蛋壳来完成一幅简单的画..
尤记得当时的我啊，只是随便敷衍敷衍老师..
完成的那一幅东西简直就是幅鬼画..哈哈！
但，这次我没并有敷衍..
我是拿出百分之两百的心来完成它..
没记错的话，我大概用了一个多小时来完成它吧！
嗯，也许因为我手工差，再加上没什么天份..
才需耗时那么久来完成它吧！
当作品完成的那一刹那..
真的有感觉很开心..
开心自己竟然能够坐在那一个多小时..
为的只是要用最真诚的心来完成它..
我真的做到了..
可是，我的这一张东西没有感动到他..
丁点都没有..
他收到了，看了..
只是问我寄给他干嘛..
还叫我别再寄这样的东西给他了..
我听了真的觉得很心痛..
心痛的不是他叫我别再寄这样的东西给他..
而是他竟然一点感觉都没有..
我还以为自己亲手完成的..
他看后会有一点感动..
就一点都好吧..
但，并没有..
我得到的..
只是他一句'你可以不要再寄这些东西来吗？'
我的心该摆在哪里？
你的心又飞去哪里了？
你的心，还容纳得下我吗？
你的心，还有在想我吗？
请你告诉我..
其实我还在你心中..
其实你还需要我..
好吗？
请你告诉我..
其实你真的已经原谅我了..
好吗？
我在等你..
真的..一直都在等..

- 不寻常的痛 -

不懂怎么的，肚子痛总是缠着我..
习惯性的躺在床上，缩成一团..
感觉如此就能减少痛苦..
但，好像并不能..

以前的我，无论发生什么事情..
我都会马上拿起电话..
毫不犹豫的拨打给他..
就算知道他不能马上赶来救我..

但，今非昔比..
现在的我已经不能这样做了..
因为我已经没有权利了..
你，不再是我的男朋友..
试问，我的权利何在？

肚子痛会因为压力而引起的吗？
生活过得没有很规律会引发肚子痛吗？
我肚子的痛，有很正常吗？
还是很不寻常？

如果他在，我的痛会否减轻呢？
如果他在，我会比较好过吧？
但，他已经不在了..
他不会再出现了吗？
他不会再回来了吗？

告诉我，他会回来的..
我需要他，非常需要..

- I hate night -

I hate night..
Before I sleep, I feel very worry..
I cant fall in sleep easily..
I need 1-2 hours to get in to dream..
This happen every night..
This is very bothering..

Somebody told me that all questions will have its own solution..
But,for me..
I have no solution..
Somebody told me no worries..
Where u fell down,there is the place u get up..
But,I was failed to do it..


No solution..
This is no cure for me..
The only cure is a dream for me..
This dream wont comes true..
Never..never..

I need u..
I need u everyday..every moments..
Will u back to my side..?
Will u give me a chance..?
I hope this is not a dream that wont be achieved for me..
I hope my dream will comes true..

Please tell me.. YOU DO ..

- My life is suck -

I feel my life is very suck..

I am pretending happy to pass my daily life.. Everyday smile to everyone,laugh to everyone.. But,all of these are just my fake face.. I don't want to let others know I am getting hurt.. And I don't want to let others know my life is getting worst and worst..

Nowadays,I live without any aim.. My life seems like lost direction.. I need somebody to guide me to the right.. The person is him.. But,I found that it is impossible for me to get him..

We really need to appreciate what we having,don't make things late and make things regret.. For sure that is too late to be regret for something.. Regret is a very painful thing..

There is too late for explanation.. It is because nobody will give u a chance to explain.. Nobody will trust u again.. In the last,u will find that u just a NOBODY.. Everything u want to explain to somebody,please do it in the beginning,but not in the last..

My love for u is strong enough u should have to know..

No matter how,no matter what.. I will always love u..
U are my only love..
Take care..

- My blog -

Jhen's world born on 16.08.09 Sunday at 1.22pm..

This is the first time I become a blogger,everything is new for me.. That's why I feel confusing and helpless in making my profile complete..However,I will try to handle it,and becomes a good blogger..I'm sure i will able to do it..
Well,I also not sure why I wanna to write blog.. To pass my free time? Or wanna share something? Or wanna voice out something? No matter how, Jhen's world contains something happening in my life...
This is my year to sitting for STPM .. So,I don't think I have lots of time to blogging..But,I will try to always up-to-date for my page..

Enjoy blogging ya guys !